The dog started barking this morning at 4:49 and I realized I was going to have to make a very difficult decision. I absolutely adore this dog and for the most part he has been a great pet. He’s loving, he’s small, he mostly behaves himself and he’s great with kids. But his barking has been a problem for quite a while. Any time he is locked up he barks and squeals and yowls keeping everyone awake, and with Becky’s nerves and body as fragile as they are these days that’s not fair to her. And it’s not fair to Stewie. I realize that most of the reason he’s barking is because he just wants to play and be around us. That’s my fault more than his because I don’t have the time to walk him and play with him like I need to. And with a baby on the way that’s only going to get worse.
(grrrrr, trying not to cry while I type this)
I’ve always loved dogs and wanted one of my own. I had two when I was younger, but both times my parents ended up giving them away after only a year or so. When we got Stewie I told her she better not ever do that to me because it was so hard on me both of the times before. I told her about how after the last one I watched Cheers while my parents took the dog to the Humane Society and I still get teary eyed every time I hear that damn theme song.
The other thing I hate about this decision is thinking about what will happen to Stewie if he’s not with us. We got him when he was six weeks old so we’re really the only owners he’s ever known. He’s become very attached to the cat (sometimes inappropriately so) and I’m heartbroken to think about him not having that environment. But then I think that maybe he’ll get to be with a family that has more time to truly play with him and enjoy everything he has to offer.
These are the things I’m going to miss the most:
-The way he “smiles” after he’s chewed his rope too hard and his teeth show over his lip
-The way he follows me around the house at my ankles like my best friend in the world
-How excited he gets by one simple little rope and how cute he looks carrying the thing around like a baby
Ah, I can’t so this anymore it’s too hard.